I just came back from my 5-day vacation in Thailand. It was really a fantastic trip. I really enjoyed myself there. Frankly speaking, there is no single holiday or vacation that I don't like. But none of them can compare to the one I am going to talk about.
One and half years ago, when my son was born, I ended my carefree life and entered a new chapter - being a mom. And I started the longest holiday ever in my life- 5 months' maternity leave. I remembered for the first month after the baby was born. I had to stay in the house for the whole month, taking care of the new born crying all the time without knowing what he wants, I had to feed the little creature constantly. I had to change diapers for him from time to time. When the day ended and the night came, it became more hard. I slept very lightly as I have to be prepared to handle over the little creature whenever he woke up. Feed, sleep, change diaper, sleep. It seemed to be my new normal. I felt exhausted, wanting sleep more than anything in the world. Sleep deprivation had pushed me to the lowest of lows. While my friend, keeping posting of their exciting vacations on wechat, with the beautiful tour sites, the exotic food, the sunshine smiles..Meanwhile, my husband seemed to be able to do whatever he wanted whenever he wanted as usual. Me, on the other hand, seemed like a watchdog tied down inside the house by an invisible rope around my neck. I envied them. I felt like I was missed out. I felt like crying from inside. I felt that my life had gone, never to return. It was more painful than compared to any other problem before in my life. It seemed to be the worst holiday I ever had.
If your job leaves you uninspired, and fragile; I feel you. If every morning you wrack your brain trying to come up with an excuse for not going to work; I feel you. If you question your value, overlook your intelligence, I really feel you. I’ve been there. In fact, I lived there, day in a day out, for the last 4 months. I just went through a massive layoff in my company. I've heard many smart people being asked to left the company. I've seen people with 15 years of experience getting laid off in this and can't find a better job for months. And for the ones in their 50s, there are the added worries about employers assuming they have out-of-date skills sets. Yup, it's a big ouch. The whole thing is just unfortunate.
But I do learn one valuable thing from the layoffs. It is very simple: Be prepared to be fired. Be prepared emotionally, technically and financially. I will give you three stories of my colleagues who were affected by this layoff.